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Wednesday, December 17, 2014

141218

交往7个月又8天,有你的岁月都是被祝福的。好想不顾后果的把你塞满我的世界,这样就每天都如此熟悉深刻,你丝毫悲喜甚至呼吸的频率变化都察觉得出来。今天又学会了,聚少离多这种事,对于心思不够慎密又神经大条的人来说就只有死路一条。因为这样的自己没法看出任何异样和端倪。

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

141007

我太害怕自己会忘记当下的感动,因为那是多么不该被忘记的瞬间。所以我选择记录下来,被你体谅和理解的感觉是多么美好。这次的旅行,每一个瞬间应该被记下来,在绝望或感觉坠落谷底的时候,提醒着自己曾经拥有过这样的幸福。这样的你,让我想变得更好。


Thursday, July 24, 2014

140725

世界这么大,诱惑这么多,我怎么管得了你的心。
人的心毕竟也不是那么牢靠,自己不也领教过了。
他们的爱情好像是彼此伤害的游戏,为了让对方身上留下很深很长的伤疤而玩的游戏。
我不知道我们
或者说,我朝思暮想的想拥有的你的心其实只是浮云,抓了也会飘走。

Friday, June 27, 2014

140627

Finally we meet again.
从分开到现在,一共10天了。今天我一抬头我就知道,这几天无能为力的想念全都结束了。感谢在这10天里你好好的照顾自己,感谢你好好的,活生生的,健康康的向我走来。
我是个不相信永远的人,没有一辈子这回事。人跟爱情都一样,都会随着时间流逝而改变。所以你知道吗?真正让我感动的不是永恒的信誓旦旦,也不是牵着手走到最后的承诺,而是当下的我们,有多么幸福到淋漓尽致。   
不知道你察觉到了没,面对你我变得不善于表达自己。与其说表达,有时候根本不知道自己感觉到什么,全都是后来回神后才辨认到的。也许这样的说法很难以理解,我甚至怀疑过自己是不是麻木的。或许是种症状,叫做感官神经迟钝现象。情绪处于游神的状态,事后迟迟才反应过来。
解释了乍么多,其实今天到底是怎么一个感觉,我也还没反应过来。也给我点时间吧。

Friday, June 13, 2014

140614

Apparently today's theme is somewhere lingered around flashback. Considered sem 2's gonna end, third last day I decide to recall back everything happened(and it's eventful)during my second semester in this uni. Geez how sentimental am I. Hmm so on the first day I went bck here after a one-month plus short holiday,and there I was,unpackaging things and crying like a baby while holding an apple in my hand (Yea my mum's apple)and then I realize I actually haven't grown up, not even a little. The rest of the week passed with emotionally unstable due to homesick and got the offer to join Annabelle Dance crew. A real surprise that made me instantly forgot about the damn homesick. It's like I've found sth that made my blood boiled. And worth to strike for. Many things happened then, good followed by bad. Nonstop drama and finally settled down with my current crew after tons of meeting and discussion about the merging of both crews. It's peachy subject to talk about actually. Kick-start of the semester was a charity event called 3C and we've got the chance to perform the song 'Wolf'. Got bruises and a few scratches by the intense moves but still managed to cope with it. It's a really cool event especially I got to meet up with sis and friends.
And we move on to the next Ice cream factory charity event. I did the contemporary dance which full of emotions and the cheerful song named Into The New World,flash mob in the end and a little bit of crazy dance. 
Still sulking for bad past I finally buckled up myself and went on a short vacation. It's felt so refreshing after meeting up with siblings and friends. Nothing beats these. 
Meanwhile our crew did our first flashmob at lecture place. T-ara ft N4 Jeon Won diary. Cool song. And then there's an intruder who creeped his way into my life. Little did I know he's gonna walked straight into my heart(cheesy much okay I admit). Next one was the MV shooting for the theme song of MPP event. Yes we actually dancing under the hot sun. We've been practising the song for a couple of nights maybe? Too express huh 
The coming event was MISC flower young(kinda forgot the full name)our crew did a retro dance called 'Rock Around The World'in group and 'Stupid Cupid' for ladies! I was having so much fun dancing in the retro-mode.

AIESEC Global fiesta on the very next day. JeonWon Diary mode again and plus-one song Warrier. Mags really rocks here. Never felt so alive before the moment I went off the stage.
Masquerade-themed grand dinner of Eon. First time trying out fashion show and the whole catwalk-in-killing-heels thing was literally torturing. Heels wasn't a joke I sweared. Anyway it ended up well. WOlf dance followed up that night.
Wasn't so keen to share my first hiking experience here knowing I'll basically bragging and vomiting everything out until god-knows-what-time. To sum it up, I've got nightmares of leeches crawling all over your body a few nights after but the outcome was pretty satisfying(a hot potential funny and muscle guy who took care of you all the way back)Mind-blowing experience I can say. Move on to event of the semester Spring fest. A bunch of waiter and waitress coming out from nowhere with dishes in their hand suddenly started to dance. Such an idea haha.We've done the ultimate and freaking intense training and working so hard on it just to produce the perfect dance. 'Party animal' and 'Ringa Linga' on the night. 
That night he confessed. Slightly awkward and embarrassing moment which I'll never forgot. 
There he was. Funny,charming,maniac,making no sense at all,doesn't give a damn about things he don't care,perfect gentleman and boyfriend. He makes me laugh like nothing else's mattered anymore,makes me forget about bad things,working so hard on coping with my moodswing strikes. 
Well homestay with da crew before final. One word to described? Crowded. Felt like shit the next day for up all night talking out heart out. I mean this was a sleepover right? We're supposed to back with dark circles. So it's final now. I've done my 5th papers and one more to go. This is me. My second semester. 

Thursday, June 12, 2014

140612

There're times in your life when you think you're so strong that you don't need anyone in your life and you're more than capable to take down everything by yourself. You start pushing people away and shutting down yourself from people who cares for you. And you never held a tinge of doubt that every human has loopholes. So suddenly in midnight you jerked up from bad dreams, all you got is pitch black,the familiar sensation of insecurities found their way into your vulnerable spot,those past which you've been tried your very best to bury came crawling back, images and people, they hunt you down and you've got nowhere to escape and hide. You never feel so naked in your entire life. Not even your pajamas can cover your scars. You wanted to get hold of somebody but you've got no one. You're all alone. And finally you realize you're anything but strong and you'd never be. 
But now you're not alone anymore. Not in midnight going through the suffocating flashback of your past all alone. There's someone you can always count on when you feel like hell. You're still timid but at least you've someone to hold on tight. Still thinking about how strong and independent are you? Don't go all optimist to life, it will always throw you a grenade the time you've put you guard down and least expected. 

Sunday, May 18, 2014

140518#random#

Must be so hard to be with me.
I'm suck in many things and I know that.
I can't even make myself to fix those problems. I've trouble dealing with people I really cared. It's kinda challenging to me that how to express myself without annoyed people. What I'm trying to say here, I miss home because I miss the feelings being spoilt in the house and nobody will talk a thing. I miss home because the whateverness I can do and everyone will bear with me. This is life. This is uni. You're looking for ppl who's capable of reading your mind and intentions yet they stay with you in the end ? Are you for real ? You're starting to reveal your true self. You've exposed yourself to risks. Dreamy-feely wasn't helping the situation. Your boyfriend is way too amazing and almost perfect to be real. The problem is not him. But reality. You thought you're normal species, but you're devil kind. 
So the devil knows how to smile.