120605

从来都不会讨厌我的人
说了‘我很讨厌你！’
我们都变了
变得互相讨厌
互相伤害
互相无视
互相攻击互相计较
回不到最初
除了爱什么都没有的感觉
时间
让我们看清现实
从童话中苏醒
我只是还不适应
还眷恋着最初的
宠爱
现在被嫌烦被讨厌
以后会更糟吧
真的没有信心了
你不想听的话
比起讨厌
更觉得心寒
果然你看清了我
这才是真正的我
无理取闹
专制霸道
爱找吵架
爱欺负人
无视你的疼痛
这样的我
请你再说爱我
看清了再说
懂我再爱我
不然
我不值得爱

120604

Soaking myself for the whole day in watching drama
Best distraction to run away from any unnecessary emotions
At least for me
Mood swing is definitely bothering both of us
Also , a symptom of my madness
Imma going crazy of thinking about the time for us together are keep wasting
Time is ticking
The holiday is going to the end
Yet we still unaware of that
Yet we still choose to ignore that
You are so near yet so far
The choice i made was punishing me
The refuse-to-lie option i've made
I'm bearing the price now
Indeed can't able to meet you is a punishment for me,
both of us too
Yup i'm the one who cause these
Honestly the punishment is killing me.
More and more dramas and novels for me please
You're the one should complain
I know you won't
How shameful when i told you the reason of my choice
You've give up everything for me
How many faces you have to create
You choose me instead of your family
You choose to become a big liar
Thanks for your willingness
My one and only pig

Yes ! English today

Awsome

All my life
I've waited for the right
Moment to let you know
I don't wanna let you go oh

But now I've realized
There's just no perfect time
To confess how I feel
This much I know is real

So I refuse to
Waste one more second without you
Knowing my heart

Baby cause I don't
Need anything else but your love
Nothing but you means a thing to me
I'm incomplete

When you're not there
Holding me, touching me, I swear
All of the rest could just disappear
And I wouldn't even care
As long as you're there

Take these words
Don't let them go unheard
This is me reaching out
I hope you can hear it now

Cause baby my heart's at stake
Take it
It's yours to break

I'd rather try and lose
Than keep this love from you

So I refuse to
Waste one more second
Without you
Knowing my heart

Baby cause I don't
Need anything else but your love
Nothing but you means a thing to me
I'm incomplete

When you're not there
Holding me touching me I swear
All of the rest could just disappear
And I wouldn't even care
As long as you're there

Each day and night
That I've kept this a secret
It'd killed me
It's time
To share what I feel, 'cause

I don't
Need anything else but your love
Nothing but you means a thing to me
I'm incomplete

When you're not there
Holding me touching me I swear
All of the rest could just disappear
And I wouldn't even care
As long as you're there

120226

你走了
就这样
近在咫尺却遥不可及
我哭了
哭累了
睡不着
大概我把你的情绪都揽到自己身上了吧
这就是所谓的代替难过
我本来就这样
沉不住气禁不住冲动
我在为昨晚的胡闹付出代价
极为的惨痛
心好累
眼睛好累
真可笑
也不知道在哭哪一出
只差没把你哭死
无能的自己
毫不吝啬的展现出来
到现在还搞不懂自己再难过什么
说不出一个理由
你最讲究的
能说服人的理由
吃很少
饿着哭 饿着闹
饿着没用
饿着耍忧郁
我不懂自己要什么了
怎么做才能好过一点
怎样才能解脱
很努力的转移注意力
很明显没办法
我现在在胡闹吧
疯言疯语
不 我很认真
很陈恳
就这样
行尸走肉
我的星期天

120211

没有太大起伏

什么情绪都是隐隐的

只是如果生气了

自己就是名副其实的野蛮

我能任性到什么时候

面对这样的我总有一天会疲惫

那场梦 我明白你的顾虑

因为对象是我

明白那完全可能发生

突然觉得好多事要去反省

好奇 兴趣 我就是多了这些

任何保证都不能给你

我就是怕责任

没能让你安心

潜意识都说出来了

安抚你

我心虚着

我这种人拿什么去保证

反正最后都会变成废话

又愤世嫉俗了

生日快乐

希望还来得及
希望时间能允许我的心血来潮
真的很幸运很幸福
遇到了这么欠打的男人
经历了很多波折
来到了这里
因为勇敢和坚持
我们才会相爱
很喜欢一句
How can I love if I'm afraid to fall
你值得我爱你
真的值得

111114

呵呵
应该从何写起
休息太久 连思想格式都会遗忘
发生了一些事
到底有没有吸取教训然后带着成长
还是走过就忘
还是很生疏

今天应该要好好检讨反省
充充实实地后悔一番
然后重拾热血
明年再冲刺
应该啦
就真的只是应该
很巧的是最近不做应该的事

无法准确地说出一个情绪
只是好奇
为什么不想努力
明明身边有足够有利的资源
明明时时刻刻有人督促着
明明什么都不缺
问题就在于一个不想
我不是胸无大志
不是完全没有想要完成的创举
只是心底的犯贱
很努力的去证明自己有多无能

事发前后才清楚地看到
身边原来有那么多马后炮的伟人
生活就这点乐趣
马后炮也是一种生活态度

这段时期不知道自己在做什么
明明在努力
但没有热流
精神在冷却
冷到没劲没温度
冷到灵魂没有了任何渴望
冷到心底没有呼唤
没有需求所以没有付出
所以没有成果

不该再宠着自己了
因为无能就是被宠出来的