STANDING BY YOU LIKE THIS IS ENOUGH

I dont even know what kind of feeling is called love
admired?like?
myself really dont know
and yesterday's things i actually understand
but the thing is your feeling maybe is just contempory or even not the way you think
too fast 4 us to make any decision
so just like this is enough
standing-by-friend for each other
like BoA 's song's lyrics Stand by you

MENTALLY SICK LE...Y?

HAIZ.....dunno how to sit for trial...
like this kind of attitude and unready mind
this week suddenly cant sleep and hate eating
looking the bread i felt wan vomit le..
no appetite no semangat
i fall sick le izzit?
hehe....gastric again

LIE

today i have done something wrong
lie for someone lie for the two hours
just because of someone who even dunno me
i lie to them who i most dearer in this world
very sorry to you all
i really made a mistake
S---O---R---R----Y
and i love you

反复反复

就像吃了很多却什么都吐不出来的感觉，这几天经历了那么多，结果却什么也写不出来，
你们叫我那去年的作品去参赛，可是那是去年的，是过去的想法，不是目前的，我不能接受停留在过去的荣耀，已经过了很久了不是吗？
某种压力和眼光，加上自我要求，我渐渐开始怀疑自己，真的应该参赛吗？
像傻瓜一样的自我挣扎，没有尽头的疑惑，我应该放弃了。。。。吗？
应该没有办法，反复思考，在反复，一再反复，直到拿起笔的瞬间。。。。吧

damn organic tea

nearly die because of the stomachache
i thought i will die soon
pale face and faint body
just because of the #$#$ fibre tea
the pain alike last year
final exam math that day

goodbye to 4th uncle

xian ren's father just gone yesterday
when i heard dad said about the accident he met in highway
i very shocked
later i knew that he had passed away
then i just went to comfort my mum
she had lost her brother in the night
everything happenned in such a short time
now i still hope that it was a dream
and the person i most worried ,my grandma-in-law
untuil now she haven knows that her son was gone
i really scared and fear of her condition
and his wife,daughter hui yi and son
is it a dream?

不要消遣我，求你。

真的不想在这提起你，不想那么在意，人嘛。。。发生一次的事不会当一回事
就像第一次被人消遣，被一个自己认为会不同的朋友消遣
知道是怎样的消遣吗？那个答案如果再重复多一遍的话，恐怕我会崩溃
这不是喜欢。不是暗恋，是在意，是信任
到很久以后我才明白，我对你来说是那么渺小，小到你可以无视我的难过
你知道表演的事，知道我有多重视这次对自己的证明，可是你知道比赛被取消了吗？
后果呢？有关的人呢？也对，你和你的第一名和好了嘛。。怎么会记得我呢？
我太笨，笨到不知道自己居然被你消遣。还在等你的关心，哈，苯死了
没办法，不讨喜不是我的错
本来以为事情过去了，今天又因为长得不讨喜又被无视了，哈哈
是因为旁边太闪亮了吗？烂人就认命吧。。
如果可以选者的话，爸妈一定不会要我这种烂孩子
如果可以选者的话，朋友一定不会要我这种没用的人
没用到连我自己都瞧不起自己，没用到自己因为自己感到羞愧
所以我现在拥有的全部，就算是别人的施舍，我都很珍惜
算了
喜欢的话就消遣我吧，或者无视我也可以
烂人必须习惯难过，习惯被消遣，习惯被瞧不起
慢慢来，习惯了之后，你就什么都不怕了