130615

My current addiction~~

Can't get enough of you Choi Si Won !

Technically I'm just obsessed to actor Siwon. We need good things in our life.

1 month anniversary

💔💔💔

Well well well you don't know me good enough to witness my inner turmoil. You definitely don't know me well enough to notice my commotion inside because of you. It's been a month. You tore my heart into pieces and crushed my peace living life. Rough month. I fought so hard to convince myself to let you go and stop the pathetic struggles. It's a lifelong lesson for me, to realise that trust too much kills me. My sarcastic words and insults to you just the way to build my walls. I don't believe a thing you uttered, I started making assumptions, I mocked you provoked you to no ends, I did those things to protect myself from returning to that silly girl who thinks you'll always love me. Hope the wound heals but it never does, because I'm in war with love.  

130519

You never are not good enough for me. It's me, I'm not good enough for you. Trust me, you deserve better.

我睡了好久，做了一场好长好长的梦，梦醒时分，被现实推到水里去了。我不断挣扎想要呼吸，但却一直往下沉。在慌乱无助之际，出现了一块向我漂来的浮木，于是我抓着它企图想活命。

130516

Thanks for telling me that. You make me forget about the past at that moment. And sorry can't help you.  I don't want anything for now. Just peace.

Scar

I wish my heart can listen to me.
I keep telling myself, you're just someone in the past,someone I need to let go.
I keep telling myself, I don't love you actually.No I don't love you at all.
I keep telling myself to forget about you,everything we had.
It's killing me, day by day, I want to move on, I really do.
It's been hard,and it's still do.
Part of me that used to love you,trust you,long for you,I had to force it to die. Buried along with our memories.
I feel hollow. A big and deep hole in my heart.

130514

I still can't stop thinking about you. The pain seems faded but the truth is I just feel numb. I hope this is going to a right way. I think of you I still do, but at least you've stay away from my dream. I feel hurt, but at least I've manage to feel things other than pain. Not only pain anymore. I feel cheated because you don't love me yet you still pretend to, but at least there's still many people care for me, actually love me within their heart.

Yea I'm definitely moving on. I still feel horrible sometimes, but at least I've found my smiles back. My stomach feel sick and my appetite gone by the thought of you, but at least I've eaten more now. I'm trying so hard to find back my old self. The one before I met you and love you. Without you my life will never complete.