140518

What's wrong with me today? 

Damn I miss home

Damn I miss my parents

Just a call from mum then the tears flowing non-stop

我撒娇说我好想回家，她说我已经不是小孩子了。不过我觉得我是，我一直都是。👶👶👶👪

Emo个毛啊 

我就真的很想家啊

T.T T.T T.T

Hold on tight. One month to go. Just one month. Be strong please. Big girl don't cry. Don't let'em worry.

140517

Past is intimidating. It still haunt me even till now.

我的人生出现了意外。

没有预兆，打乱了我一切计划，措手而不及。一个月前我的预想绝对不是这样的。

You just appeared. Out of nowhere ,without expected. No reasons needed. Because I know why. Nothing can stopped us from intruding each other's life. Life is ironic, after all. Just like what had happened to me one year ago. How great time is. It makes us heal. So that we can start all over and learn to love again.

你的出现让我相信冥冥之中，让我相信发生在我们身上的一切都不是偶然。不管过去多么不堪，它让我们走向彼此。我感谢冥冥之中的缘分让我遇见你。我不知道明天会怎么样。我会努力幸福。我们会幸福的。

140511

9/5     Awkward arised 

10/5   Awkward leveled up 

11/5   Awkward bursts

I can't get it. I can't get myself. What've I gotten myself into ? 

This is me after all. I've made my choice. I'll take full responsible. Fresh start, new life, you definitely need this.

140509

Dark side.

I'm so not ready yet. For a healthier mindset and build a new relationship, I'm definitely not ready now. So many questions I'm talking to myself. Everything seems going so smooth it scares me. I know this will end eventually. Too good to be true. Too good to be mine. 

140418

Something isn't right tonight.

The pang in my chest just happened. Too sudden I didn't even get the time to shield it. Just back from 5-hours non-stop dance training, I guess the exhaustion of both physical an mental did this damn emo thing on me. Right timing. The song kinda reminded me of my eternal nightmare. Shit. Damn it. Then it started. You know when you feel like out of breath, like fish out of water, being tossed out of water, like someone's straggling you. Post traumatic syndrome, along with the trust issue. 

140315

j第一个学期活在你的阴影下

这个学期不会了

有些痛苦是永远没办法克服的，不是过去了就会痊愈。重新面对的那天，还是会痛。

这个学期很精彩，得到了很多表演的机会，虽然练习几乎都会伤痕累累，可是每一个淤青和伤疤，都是美丽的。因为我还能跳舞，做着自己喜欢的事。

140221

我压抑不住思念着你

拨通了电话

委屈的时候，觉得受伤的时候

偶尔一次让我听听你的声音

总是会有这么一瞬间

不管我们过去发生什么事 怎么互相伤害过 

不管未来是什么样 我们都会变什么样

电话那头你的声音 总能给我安慰

再多的话语能否回到最初 在心痛

现在很好

想你的话 就给你打电话

忙到天翻地覆 就不想你

不代表什么

就只是很好