121215This thing are getting harder to me.

Back to Malaysia, back to old life,vacation's over.
Its time to deal with old stuff...thats why I'm emotionally breaking down now...guess I'm a emotionally-too-available person , too easy to get carried away by the outburst.
Speaking of couple,relationships,mine's no a good one.Too sudden to realize that I'm weary and tired in this long distance thing...not the first time feel like this...I know you are tough either..we are same...always looking for what we don't have..like a normal couple...can meet everyday ...happened to stick together often in daily basis...its sth we can't,that's why I envy them...how i wish we can ...but no..no way..
Spending holiday together like going a trip ...we simply just can't...I don't know thess things are matter at first,I thought as long as we like each other,then nothing's matter anymore.
Life ain't a fairy tale, I'm not a good partner to be with,because I'm always asking why they can and why we can't? We are getting tougher, maybe just me,but I chose this right? This is my choice ..like a moth into the flame,I'm blind and hypnotized and too faraway from realizing the consequences.
At that time.