damn organic tea

nearly die because of the stomachache
i thought i will die soon
pale face and faint body
just because of the #$#$ fibre tea
the pain alike last year
final exam math that day

goodbye to 4th uncle

xian ren's father just gone yesterday
when i heard dad said about the accident he met in highway
i very shocked
later i knew that he had passed away
then i just went to comfort my mum
she had lost her brother in the night
everything happenned in such a short time
now i still hope that it was a dream
and the person i most worried ,my grandma-in-law
untuil now she haven knows that her son was gone
i really scared and fear of her condition
and his wife,daughter hui yi and son
is it a dream?

不要消遣我，求你。

真的不想在这提起你，不想那么在意，人嘛。。。发生一次的事不会当一回事
就像第一次被人消遣，被一个自己认为会不同的朋友消遣
知道是怎样的消遣吗？那个答案如果再重复多一遍的话，恐怕我会崩溃
这不是喜欢。不是暗恋，是在意，是信任
到很久以后我才明白，我对你来说是那么渺小，小到你可以无视我的难过
你知道表演的事，知道我有多重视这次对自己的证明，可是你知道比赛被取消了吗？
后果呢？有关的人呢？也对，你和你的第一名和好了嘛。。怎么会记得我呢？
我太笨，笨到不知道自己居然被你消遣。还在等你的关心，哈，苯死了
没办法，不讨喜不是我的错
本来以为事情过去了，今天又因为长得不讨喜又被无视了，哈哈
是因为旁边太闪亮了吗？烂人就认命吧。。
如果可以选者的话，爸妈一定不会要我这种烂孩子
如果可以选者的话，朋友一定不会要我这种没用的人
没用到连我自己都瞧不起自己，没用到自己因为自己感到羞愧
所以我现在拥有的全部，就算是别人的施舍，我都很珍惜
算了
喜欢的话就消遣我吧，或者无视我也可以
烂人必须习惯难过，习惯被消遣，习惯被瞧不起
慢慢来，习惯了之后，你就什么都不怕了

where is the solution

yesterday you sap a lot to me
and you seem very stress and helpless
when you asked me about the solution
i am sorry to say to you
the way out you must find yourself
cz this will make you grow
to become a more mature ppl
and sorry to say that
the ppl you mentioned means a lot to me

LIKE A FOOL

Its ok to lose a chance
all of us just pretend nothing happens
perhaps i am waiting for a bigger stage
my effort is not for the performance
but is for someone
who brought up my dream and spirit
its ok
because i will keep going on until the day i give up
at least until the day i meet you
and goodbye to my fellow students,idza and kiren
forgive your teacher who left after 6 months
left is not a bad thing
and himnae to both of you
remember to practise more often