140518#random#

Must be so hard to be with me.

I'm suck in many things and I know that.

I can't even make myself to fix those problems. I've trouble dealing with people I really cared. It's kinda challenging to me that how to express myself without annoyed people. What I'm trying to say here, I miss home because I miss the feelings being spoilt in the house and nobody will talk a thing. I miss home because the whateverness I can do and everyone will bear with me. This is life. This is uni. You're looking for ppl who's capable of reading your mind and intentions yet they stay with you in the end ? Are you for real ? You're starting to reveal your true self. You've exposed yourself to risks. Dreamy-feely wasn't helping the situation. Your boyfriend is way too amazing and almost perfect to be real. The problem is not him. But reality. You thought you're normal species, but you're devil kind. 

So the devil knows how to smile.

140518

What's wrong with me today? 

Damn I miss home

Damn I miss my parents

Just a call from mum then the tears flowing non-stop

我撒娇说我好想回家，她说我已经不是小孩子了。不过我觉得我是，我一直都是。👶👶👶👪

Emo个毛啊 

我就真的很想家啊

T.T T.T T.T

Hold on tight. One month to go. Just one month. Be strong please. Big girl don't cry. Don't let'em worry.

140517

Past is intimidating. It still haunt me even till now.

我的人生出现了意外。

没有预兆，打乱了我一切计划，措手而不及。一个月前我的预想绝对不是这样的。

You just appeared. Out of nowhere ,without expected. No reasons needed. Because I know why. Nothing can stopped us from intruding each other's life. Life is ironic, after all. Just like what had happened to me one year ago. How great time is. It makes us heal. So that we can start all over and learn to love again.

你的出现让我相信冥冥之中，让我相信发生在我们身上的一切都不是偶然。不管过去多么不堪，它让我们走向彼此。我感谢冥冥之中的缘分让我遇见你。我不知道明天会怎么样。我会努力幸福。我们会幸福的。

140511

9/5     Awkward arised 

10/5   Awkward leveled up 

11/5   Awkward bursts

I can't get it. I can't get myself. What've I gotten myself into ? 

This is me after all. I've made my choice. I'll take full responsible. Fresh start, new life, you definitely need this.

140509

Dark side.

I'm so not ready yet. For a healthier mindset and build a new relationship, I'm definitely not ready now. So many questions I'm talking to myself. Everything seems going so smooth it scares me. I know this will end eventually. Too good to be true. Too good to be mine.